MIDNIGHT THOUGHTS

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

3:37 AM

Pieces of me
locked away for ever
pain and my thoughts
together
and never
to stop
hearing this
eternal screaming.
and so it goes on
while Im sleeping
While I am dreaming
seeming my way out
but there is none
the life in me has gone

A mind so black
that rage is the answer
and death is the only way
This day
that day what does it matter
the pain comes either way.
And I am here
lonely to pay.

Lost in this.
never to surface
gone to a world so dark
no one can save
no ones that brave
to lose the soul in the charge.

And now its over
and I'm numb
from feeling
from life
from everyone

And all I have left is this never ending hell
this
my life
and me
the empty shell.

3:36 AM

Sometimes, when the wind blew
I thought I could here you call for me
Sometimes, when the sun shone
Thought ‘your arms around me be’

You were lost and I began wandering
I looked all over time and space
I searched, I hunted aimlessly
Begging for a trace

Then one time it came to me
What I thought was lost was found
No more did I need to search for you
Since you are all around

Now,
Every time the wind blows
Your voice it reaches me
Every time the sun shines
I know that you are here with me.

Friday, October 10, 2003

1:55 AM

A poem that a dear friend wrote for me

I shout Into space
but there Is no sound
my head starts spinning
around and around
I gaze in your eyes
and you steal my heart
you whisper my name
as my spirit departs
breathe for me
as I live in you
and laugh
because
I cry